On The Path of Transformation; Walking with Your Healer’s Shadow


I know this year hasn’t really been the “best yet”, especially in my case. Especially considering in the past few years I have realized I have become these following things;

  • A workaholic 
  • Realizing my real feelings towards humanity
  • A recluse
  • Denying a lot of my spiritual instincts
  • A control freak
  • A hoarder
  • Tired

When you sit back and think, you really kick yourself because of the fact that you know better than that. Of course, being human you realize that there is nothing wrong with reconizing that you have become what you are. It’s step one of realizing parts of yourself you want to heal. Which is why as a healer it’s important to realize your shadow.

I am going to admit to myself that this year alone, my shadow side has been scaring me…a lot. When you are realizing parts of yourself that you hide because you’re so used to being viewed in a certain way that you come to the point where you cage those parts of yourself. Of course, all cages have a weak point which in time your inner beast will find a way to escape. Usually they’ll escape at the worst possible moments, moments when you can end up hurting the people you love without realizing it. Worst of all, you end up hurting yourself the most.

Of course when you take the time to recognize those parts of yourself, you alone have the power to let them continue to consume you or face them head on to embrace them. Like the list I wrote above, I can change it to these following affirmations;

  • I am a hard worker with a very strong work ethic, which I will continue to do so I can provide a better future for myself and the people I love.
  • I recognize that I’m not too thrilled with most of the human race, but I will continue to love unconditionally.
  • I value my alone time and know when it’s time to withdraw and recharge.
  • I have become a lot more open to logic, which in turn helps me think rationally but I should remember to still trust my intuition.
  • The only person I control is myself and my thoughts and actions. Learn to know when it’s time to let go and move forward.
  • I channel my ability to prepare and save by putting it towards saving money for my future.
  • I need to take better care of my body and take the time to rest and listen.

It takes awhile to come and realize these changes, which is not something everyone is willing to do. Especially those who have hidden parts of themselves for so long that they feel they cannot be themselves except around certain people. My dear, when the time comes I hope you take the leap to embrace your shadow so in turn you can learn and heal from it.

Are you ready to take a walk with your dark side?

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On the Path of the High Priestess


The first time I have ever had any form of encounters with the word “Priestess” was when I used to play a Night Elf Shadow Priest with healing abilities in World of Warcraft. I know, a bit cliche but for some reason that was the first type of character I wanted to play. Little did I know at the time that word is what I would run into over and over again as I make my way on my own path of magick.

As many of you know, the priestess is the second trump of the major arcana. The next stage of the fool’s journey, she is revered as the silent guardian of the moon within the balance of darkness and light. She harbors many secrets and knowledge, but only for those who want it and will actively seek it. Even still, if she provides you the knowledge she will have you answer to yourself what you must do with it. When she’s not in the right state of mind, she cuts herself off from her higher self in favor of worldly possessions and will often mistake intuition with her ego.

I will be honest, within the last three years now, I have made run ins with the word priestess many times. Particularly whenever I seem to attend Convocation, I remember standing outside the door for a ritual I was attending and everyone kept asking me what is it about and when will it start. The door priestess finally came out which I pointed to her and said, “She’s the best person to ask.” I was laughing to myself because I kept being mistaken as the door guardian. Of course she turned to me and said, “Anyone has the ability to become a priestess.” Ironically, by the end of the weekend we were given charms that represented different tarot cards and of course I somehow ended up with the high priestess. Even this past Convocation I attended a ritual during the invocation of the goddess Hel, which one of the things she said to me, “The gods are waiting for you to accept their calling to represent and be their voice.”

It’s ironic though, after looking into the meaning behind the priestess how much she has represented most of my life. It is not uncommon for people to come and seek me out for advice, especially when it comes the spirituality. I have been called to teach several times in my lifetime and of course my teaching style is discussing with the student until I see a light bulb click in their head. I remember helping a girl feel energy for the first time by explaining circuiting to her in the way energy circuits a lightbulb. I was so proud, happy, and excited for her when she finally got it, it was just a simple fact that energy had to be explained to her differently. More so, I tend to stay in the gray area a good majority of the time.

The title priestess to me is both enticing yet fearful, when someone takes on that title they take on many roles which include teaching, counciling, support, leading, and other important roles. I respect those who take on that title, although I have seen it go to many people’s heads over the course of my lifetime. It is a title I do not feel worthy to take on because I have no formal training in any tradition because I feel no need to adhere to any tradition nor does one call out to me. I do represent myself as an eclectic spiritualist, which sadly seems to be frowned upon by most traditions. There is a reason why I go by the title, “The Backwoods Witch” because people often seek me out when they have ran out of options or find themselves at a dead end.

In due time, I may buck up and claim that title. Until then, I’ll be enjoying my backwoods ready to help when needed. I will continue my studies and journeying until then.

Back From The Deep Dark Pits of Despair

Or the best title I could come up with after going through some weird depression episode. Ah depression, something a good majority of people I know who fight this terrible fight within themselves. While at times it can be difficult to overcome those thought forms, sometimes you just need to pull yourself together and keep on moving. Then again, that’s way I also bought that ” Always Keep Fighting” Tee Shirt from that one campaign since the proceeds from that went to a non-profit that helps with depression and suicide prevention.

So I have been using my facebook page a bit more

You can check it out by clicking here

And I’m starting to post more photos with info and such. I actually got my hands on a more technologically advanced phone with a better camera so the photos are coming on a lot better and the fact I can do macro photography with my phone actually excites me. I’m going to be doing more magickal related posts along with some more success oriented posts. The difference though is all the photos I’ll be using for those posts will be photos I personally take (Which I’m well aware of eventually watermarking them) instead of taking them off the internet. So when I make posts on plants, stones, and other items they will be photos from my personal collection. This will also include recipes and other things.

Now I have other plans instore, first one being a newsletter and possible a few e-books including a couple of free materials. I’m making the time to get these done, now especially since we are in our slow season at work.

So, I end this post with a song I’ve had on repeat the past three days, it’s in Japanese but it’s become my new happy song.

Which is here

❤ Rosalina

The Little Things That Keep On Improving

So going to grab some coffee, I was fortunate to be part of a random act of kindness by someone paying for my drive through order. So I will definitely be paying it forward to someone real soon. I love when I run into these situations especially when I myself try my best to throw my own little acts of kindness out to the world (I.E. Holding doors for strangers, tipping a little extra for services, ect.). As they say, a little act of kindness goes a long way.

So I just finished watching a Documentary called The Tapping Solution, quite an emotional film I will admit which I was not surprised seeing what I’ve heard about tapping and EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique). Of course watching this kind of gave me an idea, especially since I’m always looking for ways to self improvement. More so because I have quite a few issues of my own to deal with and have been dealing with for years. Actually for the past three years now I’ve been doing a series of shadow work which has helped in my magickal workings…like seriously. I remember a time thinking how I wanted a skirt with the ability to turn into a thigh slit…next day I went thrift shopping and found one.

Now I will admit, that is quite a silly thing so for awhile now I’ve been putting towards more important things such as prosperity work and self improvement. I decided that I’m going to give tapping a try, but in combination with shadow work and meditation. I’m going to be using it to tackle some of the following issues I’ve been struggling with for a long time, some weird, some physical and some which has very deep rooted emotional issues. Which are the follow;

~Being stuck on my issue with carpal tunnel and Sciatica
~Tackling my addiction to sugar
~My fear to having a committed relationship
~My constant fight with going back and forth with a scarcity mindset and a thrive mindset
~My issue with procrastination
~My habit of not staying focused
~My fear of actually succeeding

Some big, some small but as they say every little bit helps. I’m going to work one issue at a time so this is going to be a long journey for me. Best of luck on this journey.