Say I Love You; It is That Simple

Love is an extremely complex, but yet simple part of life in which we all have the ability to express. It’s one of the first expressions shown to us the first time we enter the world. It comes in many forms and has the ability to be expressed in different ways.

While I have been introduced to love in it’s many forms over the years, the one I have tend to have the most issues with is in the area of romance. Often due to many incidents of unrequited love or love gone wrong. Other times it’s my own fault due to emotional shut downs and an inability to express my feelings in a way that my partners want me to express, despite telling them that I do care for them but it’s never up to their par. It’s funny how some people feel the need to paint a pretty picture of you then they get mad when you don’t turn into their version of reality.

I was once told that I didn’t know what love was, that I didn’t understand the meaning behind love. Then I realized that person was full of shit only because I was not up to his standards of love. My understanding is love comes in many forms and is expressed in many different ways. It’s a high we all live for, especially when it comes to new love. You take the time to get to know the person, seeing their little quirks and expressions they display. Learning about their interests and back stories which lead them to be the person you see before you now.

I am going to admit, while I do have people who do peak my interest from time to time, the past six years I never really let my guard down nor given people a chance to let them in. Often due to bad experiences in the past, but the funny thing is when I was at Convocation this year I won a love basket. I didn’t think much of it at the time but now within the past few months I have been learning the meaning of why it is so important to express you care to those who care for you. Learning to open your heart is a very difficult thing in a world so cruel, in a time when you are often considered as weak if you show any sign of emotion. When in reality showing love is powerful all on it’s own.

I express my love very differently, I’m more of a doer rather than a talker. Even more so, I get busy and so caught up in other things I don’t always see the people I love. I always remind them I am only a text or a message away should they need to talk to someone. There are others I hold back on, for I know neither they nor I are ready to step forward towards that direction. They’re best to let them run their own course, especially if they have issues of their own, business to take care of, other affairs to attend to, or the simple fact that they are not interested in what you want. You keep it to what you already have or you move forward. It’s just that simple.

You also in due time learn to love both their light and their shadow. Some people get along for the simple fact that their demons play well together. Although if you do notice some negative actions of their shadow coming out which causes them self harm or harm to others, you need to be strong enough to call them out. Some people don’t like it and it is a huge hurt to the ego, even more to those who have spent years rebuilding confidence within themselves due to past issues of abuse or bullying. Luckily there is more than one way to skin a cat in this case.

If you’re used to being the rock to most people like I am, the hardest part is letting your own emotions down especially around those who are used to seeing you at your highest strength. You get the ones who try to get you to stop crying or worrying by making you feel better when in reality you need to let those emotions run their course. It’s up to them if they want to be there for you or leave you alone to process your emotions, although when you’re so used to releasing your emotions alone it may be just second nature to withdraw. Of course, don’t disregard the “make you feel better” way, it’s just another simple way to show they care.

These past few months have been a huge emotional roller coaster, but it was most needed. To be able to express “I love you” to those I have known for so long, opening gates to those who want to get in, and of course reconnecting to the people you still care for despite life getting in the way.

It is simple to say I love you.


Time Away Allows The Mind to Get In Line

It’s been awhile since I have made my presence known.

Over the past few months; my heart, mind, body, and soul have been having some time to get reacquainted with one another. I’ve been going through a lot of ups and downs all these past few months. I guess you can say I took a long time to do an energetic detox which I will say was needed and well deserved. Let’s go on ahead and sum up what I have gone through in our four categories.


This one is probably the most work in progress considering how long I’ve been emotionally shut off the past few years. Yes, I still love and care for my family and friends, but sometimes I have a habit of misplaced emotions. I tend to opt for lust over love which thinking back now I realized how many people I might have shut out. I’ve learned a lot about loving myself, which that on it’s own took years to blossom upon. Now is the time to relearn how to accept love, but in the manner of letting it grow and bloom on its own. I also got a chance to revisit some old passions of mine which I see a lot of projects coming soon.


Stress works it’s way from the head on down. More importantly I have a terrible habit of over working myself. I’ve gotten better in the past few months which included changing work environments, watching a lot less tv, taking my time when it comes to studying new subjects, plus more guided meditations at night. Most of all, keeping my two year victory over my battle with depression so far, which is the best feeling of all.


I have been learning a lot about my body and it’s limits, especially the past few months. I have cut out so much junk, starting to move more, and figuring out when it’s the best time to rest. I’ve lost weight, I have a lot more energy, and don’t get sick as much which my last form of any type of sickness has been since 2013. Plus being in tune with my base needs and knowing how to take care of them is an added bonus.


It’s funny this is the one area I have had the most progress in. Especially as I am approaching my 9th year as a practicing witch. Within the past two years I’ve been reaching out more and started teaching. I’m still learning the whole teacher thing, especially when you’re so used to being an introvert and never mind the fact that public speaking terrifies the shit out of me. I found a subject that I hold dearest to me, which is what I’m going to be keeping my focus on for now. I have a lot of work ahead but Thoth be by my side for this ride.

I’ve got a lot of work ahead. If you don’t mind bumpy roads I would love for you to join me. 😉